so hard to leave the past behind/ teen mom

Why it is so hard to leave the past behind? That is the question i ask myself all the time. It's crazy how some people can make mistakes and act like nothing happened. Today i spoke to my mom on the phone and while i was listening to her voice i couldn't help but remind myself of how much pain she put me and my siblings through. I remember like it was yesterday how my 2 sisters my younger brother and me sat in front of the house crying for my mother because she was no where to be found until we realized that she was gone. It was 1994 and i was living in the Dominican Republic with my mom, 2 sisters, and little brother while my dad was here in New York working hard for us. I remember waking up one morning and seeing that the house was a little quiet and that my mom wasn't there. It was a short time until we realized that my mom had left us alone and that she was never coming back. We didn't know that she had called our father so that he could come and pick us up and take us with him because she couldn't handle the pressure of having 4 kids at a early age. It has been almost 16 years since this happened but my mind can't seem to erase this situation that has hunt me for almost all my life. I just can't understand how can some mothers leave their children behind without caring if they're hungry or if they are safe. The first time we heard from my mother again was like 5 years after she had left and the thing that killed me the most is that she never mention a word about what she did nor ever gave us an explanation about the whole situation. I learned how to forgive because i forgave her even though she left me but i have never and will never forget what she did to us. My dad cried for years and years because of what my mother had done to us and till this day they haven't said a word to each other. The reason why i brought this story up is because of a show i watched not so long ago called "teen mom". In this show you see the life of 6 teen moms battling through life without money or any family members supporting them. All they had was their child and that made them happy. I just couldn't help but wonder why didn't my mom did that or felt that way for us, i guess not everybody is the same. Just like me and my siblings there are many more kids without a mother or a father going through a lot and suffering the lost of someone that was suppose to be there for the rest of their life. I know that Being a teen mom is very hard and stressful but it is not impossible and no mom should leave their child under any circumstances. I just have a very strong opinion about teen pregnancy, and a mother leaving her child. i jsut think that if you feel like you are not ready to take care of a child you should be more careful and protect yourself more with everything that you do because a child shouldn't be the victum of your own mistakes.